I'm scared!
Sabtu, November 12 @ 7:12 PTG | 0 notes

"Music is my life - You're my sweetest nightingale"

For some reason, I have this weird feeling in me that kept telling me that I am going to die.
 I don't know, 
I'm sure most of the people around me are starting to get
 annoyed with my sudden religiousness. But I couldn't help it, I'm so scared. 
I'm so scared of dying. 
I'm so scared of afterlife. 
What if, one day, I didn't wake up from my sleep? 
What if I forgot to pray, or didn't pray the die before I die? 
What is going to happen to me? I'm scared. 
Everyday, I pray, I pray for the best for everyone around me too. 
We shall all be a better Muslim as days pass. One day, you will all change too. 
This, in no way am I trying to show off, or be proud but this is what I have been feeling these days. 
I don't know why am I so scared all the time. 
It's like death is running after me.


"The long December rain is falling now. Running down on streets to nowhere. Music is my life, you're my sweetest nightingale. But I can't hear it here no more. And I go, I go..."

P/S : this a cut and paste entry from her blog :') somehow what she write is the same for what I felt this year long..